Thursday, July 3, 2008

Attitude Adjustment

Some of you may have noticed. I have not been having an easy time of it inside my head. I, as it turns out, have not been happy. Humph. Of course, as always, I was the last to know.

However, upon reflection - I have decided that there is exactly NO reason in the world for me NOT to be happy, to have peace and direction. To be joy, and love. I am those things and more. And furthermore - life is pretty Trrific! I do what I love, I do who I love ;) - and I love where I am. I also began reading The Secret. I don't usually go in for that sort of thing (and I admit, I'm reading it slowly, interspersed with scripts and New Yorkers...a side of cynicism you know, to keep things balanced) but I'm liking it. I wake up every morning and I begin saying thank you - and then I keep saying it all the live long day. I'm like a slightly more fashion conscious monk, walking around all the time chanting, "thank you for..." "Thank you for letting the car place near my work not have time for me so that I got to walk a mile in 90 degree weather to pay $600 and then walk back, thus getting some exercise, time to talk to my sister, and an appreciation for just WHY I need to pay that much money so that my car will run!" That sort of thing, you know?

AND IT WORKS! Weird. I'm happy. And as it turns out, I think I've been happy all along. AND...the other great thing about saying thank you all the time - not only do I appreciate the world and just about everything in it these days - but it doesn't give my KF***ED radio station in my brain (are you Anne Lamott fans?) a chance to bring in all the ugly little "what if's" that it loves to do. I'm too busy saying thank you to hear it.

Of course, I'm willing to admit that this particular joy today just MAY have something to do with the 3 day weekend that I'm about an hour away from!

Happy 4th of July. Did you know that Vicksburg, MS didn't celebrate the 4th until sometime in the 1990's BECAUSE we lost a major siege (that would be the Siege of Vicksburg, folks!) during the Civil War on July 4th. Yep. But then the casinos came in, and they didn't care about that sort of thing. That's where I'm from. :)