I've made a new resolution for myself these days. I'll admit, I've been a tad grouchy. Which has actually been a rarity for a while now. I believe that my New Year's resolution to say "thank you" for something every day has really taken it's toll on my cynicism. As a result, I've been pretty chipper of late.
But not this past week. In the past week I have been a downright grump. Crampy and worn out sure - but that's no excuse. SO - I have resolved, that whenever I am feeling particularly unkind or pessimistic, that I will attempt to combat that feeling by doing something nice. Putting something good out into the world. I owe the world some goodness. Thursday was a particularly grumpy day. I stopped by a bakery on the way in and brought treats for work. That helped.
The thing is, I REALLY, REALLY like being nice. I know that well behaved women rarely make history, and I know that being nice is not nearly so important as being smart, revolutionary, provocative...etc... but I don't think that being nice means you can't be those things as well. And being nice makes me feel really good.
BUT...(there's always a caveat, right? the duality of the world, I suppose) I am discovering that it's not quite so selfless as we'd like to let ourselves think. I like being nice. I like knowing that someone's day is a little brighter, or a little easier... I also like knowing that I did that. I like the thank you. Now, I'll defend myself a bit by saying that I don't need a gift, or a big explosion of emotion - but I do really need a thank you. I kind of thrive on thank you's.
It's interesting to me that 100 years ago when people had basically two ways to say "thank you" that they did it, religiously, as an art form. Letter writing, the thank you note - an intrinsic part of society. But now that we can text, call, facebook, myspace, twitter, email, snail mail, im, or say it in person...we forget to say "thank you". Or...we're embarrassed, or don't know how to accept kindness from one another, or something.
And I'm guilty myself. As I write this, I'm thinking of 4 or 5 people that I need to say "thank you" to right now. Seriously folks - think about how good it makes you feel when you just get a casual "thank you" tossed your way at a burger joint...now imagine if your friends or family said it to you, right after you took a minute or two out of your life to do something nice. Wouldn't that make you feel GREAT! So do it.
Say THANK YOU!
I'll be a little less grumpy if you would ;)
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Having trouble focusing...
It doesn't rain but it pours, right? Lately my days seem to be that way - either I'm so productive that I barely recognize myself - or I'm a total wreck, completely unable to focus on any one thing or get anything more complicated than the bed making done. Luckily, I've had an awful lot of the productive days lately...unfortunately, today is one of the more *wreckish* days. Not that I'm not in a glorious mood, because I am.
Had a meeting this morning with a gentleman. The meeting went very well - actually, the news was better than expected...and it looks as thought there might be some great changes in 2009! Sorry, I'm going to refrain from being any less cryptic than that at the moment, in the hopes that I don't spoil something by talking too much about it! However, suffice it to say - I'm very excited...I'll keep you posted when we know more!
Yesterday I downloaded a free trial of some graphics software from the web and created a pretty great looking seating chart for Curious. I know that miiiight PERHAPS not sound so exciting to all of you - but I'm thrilled. It looks pretty decent for a girl who had no idea what she was doing...and I just love doing things I've never done before.
Let's see - because I'm having difficulty focusing today...here's a list of those things that I love.
1. Apparently, I love lists
2. I love Brian
3. I love my family
4. I love my friends - old and new, close and far away - I love picking up with someone like it's been no time at all since we were together - i love long chats
5. I love the mountains. Seriously, I had no idea they would do this to me. I love the mountains
6. I love plays...everything about them.
7. I love museums...pretty much any museum...there's so much to learn!
I REALLY love the Mall in DC...seriously, for a museum lover...seriously!
8. I love an active, passionate debate - about anything really
9. I love dancing
10. I love live music - particularly the Irish kind...but I'm not terribly particular
11. I love the way my new cat purrs when you pet him, but requires that all loving be on his terms...I love this about animals, less so about people ;)
12. I love an outside music festival in the summertime - the Sunflower Blues Festival and Jazzfest take the cake
13. I love my mom's friends
14. I love costume jewelry
15. I love painting (rooms, chairs, tables, etc...not portraits or anything fancy like that)
16. I love a colorful bouquet of balloons
17. I love outside barbeques
18. I love the way I think I look in my leather jacket, driving my mustang...it's not really who I am at all...but I sure dig that image
19. I love getting really really dirty and tired and then taking a long hot shower
Had a meeting this morning with a gentleman. The meeting went very well - actually, the news was better than expected...and it looks as thought there might be some great changes in 2009! Sorry, I'm going to refrain from being any less cryptic than that at the moment, in the hopes that I don't spoil something by talking too much about it! However, suffice it to say - I'm very excited...I'll keep you posted when we know more!
Yesterday I downloaded a free trial of some graphics software from the web and created a pretty great looking seating chart for Curious. I know that miiiight PERHAPS not sound so exciting to all of you - but I'm thrilled. It looks pretty decent for a girl who had no idea what she was doing...and I just love doing things I've never done before.
Let's see - because I'm having difficulty focusing today...here's a list of those things that I love.
1. Apparently, I love lists
2. I love Brian
3. I love my family
4. I love my friends - old and new, close and far away - I love picking up with someone like it's been no time at all since we were together - i love long chats
5. I love the mountains. Seriously, I had no idea they would do this to me. I love the mountains
6. I love plays...everything about them.
7. I love museums...pretty much any museum...there's so much to learn!
I REALLY love the Mall in DC...seriously, for a museum lover...seriously!
8. I love an active, passionate debate - about anything really
9. I love dancing
10. I love live music - particularly the Irish kind...but I'm not terribly particular
11. I love the way my new cat purrs when you pet him, but requires that all loving be on his terms...I love this about animals, less so about people ;)
12. I love an outside music festival in the summertime - the Sunflower Blues Festival and Jazzfest take the cake
13. I love my mom's friends
14. I love costume jewelry
15. I love painting (rooms, chairs, tables, etc...not portraits or anything fancy like that)
16. I love a colorful bouquet of balloons
17. I love outside barbeques
18. I love the way I think I look in my leather jacket, driving my mustang...it's not really who I am at all...but I sure dig that image
19. I love getting really really dirty and tired and then taking a long hot shower
Friday, February 13, 2009
Percolatin'
It's been a wee bit since the last time I wrote...and I certainly don't have anything deep and profound to say. I've found that that's often the case when my world is as ridiculously busy as it is right now...this is the time for action, and lots of it. Later on, once I've had a little time to gargle all these new experiences, THEN, perhaps I'll be able to see something interesting in it all. Currently, all I can see is the next step in front of me.
So - here's the update - and maybe I'll get back to you with reflections on the same later! This week has been an exciting, exhilarating, and wild ride. Most importantly and excitingly - B.loved's birthday was yesterday! He's 35 years old now, and better than ever. We met just over 3 years ago...on January 31, 2006. I certainly wasn't looking to fall in love with him - but there he was, and what could I do? The first two birthdays I've known him for, I couldn't physically celebrate with him - but the last two we've been together for, and I look forward to so many more. There's not much that I enjoy better than celebrating that beautiful man! AND...tomorrow is our 3 year anniversary from our first kiss. AND...tomorrow is his Opening Night for LOVE SONG at Paragon Theatre. It's going to be a really amazing show, I've read the script a few times and really dig it, it's quirky, and hopeful, and really really beautiful I think. Paragon's a Denver Company I really like, and can't wait to celebrate this great week by watching his great show! Come check it out - running through March 14!
On top of all that - RABBIT HOLE, the production that I assistant directed (under the amazing indominatable Christy Montour-Larson) is closing on Saturday. I get to watch it one more time tonight. The uncomfortable theatre phenomenon...after all this work, time, and love - this piece of art is going to be over. However, there's plenty of things to put my mind to - I'm the props designer for the Curious production of EURYDICE by Sarah Ruhl - which has proven to be a tad more challenging than I thought. But the show is going to be stunning and I'm proud to be a part of it...and the challenging stuff just means more growing, right?
Speaking of growing, I'm also taking an improv class once a week at the Denver Center Teaching Academy. I've never ever taken even an hour of improv, and I'm scared silly. But surprise, surprise! It's turning out to be a blast...again, challenging...lots of growing going on these days - but it's a nice break from everything else, a moment to just clear my mind for a couple of hours each week and only think about the moment at hand...and play!
I'm working more hours at Curious - in addition to the box office, I've also been assisting our Marketing Director - mostly sending out emails and working on our new website...check it out at www.curioustheatre.org. AND, I've been teaching a lot these days...in addition to the 4 hours of classes to the wee ones that I teach each week, I've also been subbing a bit for a friend - which is always fun...
I remain committed to traveling more this year (although as yet, I haven't spent a night away in 2009)...I miss a lot of old friends, and find that it's so easy to get caught up in the routine of putting one foot in front of the other...next thing you know you're another year older and what have you got to show for it? So, in the works is a St. Louis trip in March...then on my birthday weekend, B and I have promised each other a mini getaway. Also - a trip to Chicago needs to happen, and back to MS...on top of that are some weddings I'd love to get to - and something grande and wonderful for B and I to do for each other!
2009 has had a lot of death in it. No death so very close to me really, but surrounding me - every where I turn there's just a little nudge, a reminder. I'm trying to just note that, and keep it in mind. I think there's something important for me there...as yet, I'm still percolating. In the meantime, I'm sending out big love and comfort to all those people around me who HAVE been closely touched by it already.
So there it is, all the news that's fit to print. Brightest Blessings to all of you out there, and as always, thanks for reading. Thanks for caring!
So - here's the update - and maybe I'll get back to you with reflections on the same later! This week has been an exciting, exhilarating, and wild ride. Most importantly and excitingly - B.loved's birthday was yesterday! He's 35 years old now, and better than ever. We met just over 3 years ago...on January 31, 2006. I certainly wasn't looking to fall in love with him - but there he was, and what could I do? The first two birthdays I've known him for, I couldn't physically celebrate with him - but the last two we've been together for, and I look forward to so many more. There's not much that I enjoy better than celebrating that beautiful man! AND...tomorrow is our 3 year anniversary from our first kiss. AND...tomorrow is his Opening Night for LOVE SONG at Paragon Theatre. It's going to be a really amazing show, I've read the script a few times and really dig it, it's quirky, and hopeful, and really really beautiful I think. Paragon's a Denver Company I really like, and can't wait to celebrate this great week by watching his great show! Come check it out - running through March 14!
On top of all that - RABBIT HOLE, the production that I assistant directed (under the amazing indominatable Christy Montour-Larson) is closing on Saturday. I get to watch it one more time tonight. The uncomfortable theatre phenomenon...after all this work, time, and love - this piece of art is going to be over. However, there's plenty of things to put my mind to - I'm the props designer for the Curious production of EURYDICE by Sarah Ruhl - which has proven to be a tad more challenging than I thought. But the show is going to be stunning and I'm proud to be a part of it...and the challenging stuff just means more growing, right?
Speaking of growing, I'm also taking an improv class once a week at the Denver Center Teaching Academy. I've never ever taken even an hour of improv, and I'm scared silly. But surprise, surprise! It's turning out to be a blast...again, challenging...lots of growing going on these days - but it's a nice break from everything else, a moment to just clear my mind for a couple of hours each week and only think about the moment at hand...and play!
I'm working more hours at Curious - in addition to the box office, I've also been assisting our Marketing Director - mostly sending out emails and working on our new website...check it out at www.curioustheatre.org. AND, I've been teaching a lot these days...in addition to the 4 hours of classes to the wee ones that I teach each week, I've also been subbing a bit for a friend - which is always fun...
I remain committed to traveling more this year (although as yet, I haven't spent a night away in 2009)...I miss a lot of old friends, and find that it's so easy to get caught up in the routine of putting one foot in front of the other...next thing you know you're another year older and what have you got to show for it? So, in the works is a St. Louis trip in March...then on my birthday weekend, B and I have promised each other a mini getaway. Also - a trip to Chicago needs to happen, and back to MS...on top of that are some weddings I'd love to get to - and something grande and wonderful for B and I to do for each other!
2009 has had a lot of death in it. No death so very close to me really, but surrounding me - every where I turn there's just a little nudge, a reminder. I'm trying to just note that, and keep it in mind. I think there's something important for me there...as yet, I'm still percolating. In the meantime, I'm sending out big love and comfort to all those people around me who HAVE been closely touched by it already.
So there it is, all the news that's fit to print. Brightest Blessings to all of you out there, and as always, thanks for reading. Thanks for caring!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
New Years Resolutions
I made New Years Resolutions this year. Hooray! It's been a while, and even longer since I kept them. But here it is...
1. I am resolved to seek out joy
2. I am resolved not to yell
3. I am resolved to cut my cc debt in half
4. I am resolved to say *thank you* at least once a day
I think that's a nice little list here...it's well balanced, a little mental betterment, a little material betterment. Actually, I wish there were 5 points on the list, it would seem a bit more, concise. But hell, as it turns out, I'm not particularly concise in my overall life - and those 4 are plenty already. So there it is, my little list - and I'm pleased with it. I feel like it's enough of a challenge to keep me motivated, but not too much for me to say, "Eh, chuck it!" about 3 months in.
I started a new little moleskin in fact, yesterday - I'm going to write down the thank you's. I think it will help remind me to do it first of all, and then secondly, how great to have a record at the end of the year of all the things I have to be thankful for! I started it early, but then again, I figure, "hey, I get to make the rules here!"
All in all, things are going very well out here in the West. It's a whirlwind for sure - but as always, full of fun! The holidays were lovely. We got to spend most of Christmas Eve (after I got off work) with B's family. His folks have been out of town for months, so it was great to be there with everyone and all cheerful and well fed :) Then we had our own sweet Christmas at our house, with a fire in the fireplace and stockings full! I sure do love that man. THEN, at 11pm, we left for Lyons to surprise my mom, Jenni, Anna, Anna's fella' Ryan, and mom's dog Gilly (Mrs. McGillicuty) at the cabin. They weren't expecting us until Christmas Day, so lots of screaming and excitment ensued when we finally arrived. We stayed up until 4am (making that a 21 hour day for me) playing Apples to Apples and laughing. Good times! Two more days in the cabin saw lots more game playing, some movie watching, a little hiking, a wonderful visit from Princess Aly, her prince, and their two delightful dogs, who got along quite well with Gilly. What a wonderful time was had. Missed my dad of course this year, but we did finally get him on Skype, so got to see his face at least. :)
I'm working at Curious of course, and currently assistant directing a gorgeous production of RABBIT HOLE by David Lindsay Abaire, under the force of a director, Christy Montour Larson. I am learning so much every day from her, and from this extraordinary actors - the play's intense and emotional, and such an honor to be a part of.
B's had great news lately - the man can't be stopped! He'll be playing the lead in Paragon Theatre's production of LOVE SONG. It's a quirky and very cool play, and it opens on Valentines Day - our 3 year anniversary. Then he'll do The Golden Goose, another great children's play, at the Mizel Center...and another short film role, AND a national internet commercial. Plus, next week, his daughter will be out here visiting us for a bit. So much great stuff going on - and so much still in store!
So there it is, friends! As always, thanks so much for reading. Have a very, very Happy New Year, and I sure hope that 2009 is the year we get some good hanging out time in!
1. I am resolved to seek out joy
2. I am resolved not to yell
3. I am resolved to cut my cc debt in half
4. I am resolved to say *thank you* at least once a day
I think that's a nice little list here...it's well balanced, a little mental betterment, a little material betterment. Actually, I wish there were 5 points on the list, it would seem a bit more, concise. But hell, as it turns out, I'm not particularly concise in my overall life - and those 4 are plenty already. So there it is, my little list - and I'm pleased with it. I feel like it's enough of a challenge to keep me motivated, but not too much for me to say, "Eh, chuck it!" about 3 months in.
I started a new little moleskin in fact, yesterday - I'm going to write down the thank you's. I think it will help remind me to do it first of all, and then secondly, how great to have a record at the end of the year of all the things I have to be thankful for! I started it early, but then again, I figure, "hey, I get to make the rules here!"
All in all, things are going very well out here in the West. It's a whirlwind for sure - but as always, full of fun! The holidays were lovely. We got to spend most of Christmas Eve (after I got off work) with B's family. His folks have been out of town for months, so it was great to be there with everyone and all cheerful and well fed :) Then we had our own sweet Christmas at our house, with a fire in the fireplace and stockings full! I sure do love that man. THEN, at 11pm, we left for Lyons to surprise my mom, Jenni, Anna, Anna's fella' Ryan, and mom's dog Gilly (Mrs. McGillicuty) at the cabin. They weren't expecting us until Christmas Day, so lots of screaming and excitment ensued when we finally arrived. We stayed up until 4am (making that a 21 hour day for me) playing Apples to Apples and laughing. Good times! Two more days in the cabin saw lots more game playing, some movie watching, a little hiking, a wonderful visit from Princess Aly, her prince, and their two delightful dogs, who got along quite well with Gilly. What a wonderful time was had. Missed my dad of course this year, but we did finally get him on Skype, so got to see his face at least. :)
I'm working at Curious of course, and currently assistant directing a gorgeous production of RABBIT HOLE by David Lindsay Abaire, under the force of a director, Christy Montour Larson. I am learning so much every day from her, and from this extraordinary actors - the play's intense and emotional, and such an honor to be a part of.
B's had great news lately - the man can't be stopped! He'll be playing the lead in Paragon Theatre's production of LOVE SONG. It's a quirky and very cool play, and it opens on Valentines Day - our 3 year anniversary. Then he'll do The Golden Goose, another great children's play, at the Mizel Center...and another short film role, AND a national internet commercial. Plus, next week, his daughter will be out here visiting us for a bit. So much great stuff going on - and so much still in store!
So there it is, friends! As always, thanks so much for reading. Have a very, very Happy New Year, and I sure hope that 2009 is the year we get some good hanging out time in!
Saturday, November 29, 2008
...the sun and the moon and the apple trees...
There's a fabulous lady, the princess Aly, who posted a recent blog with a little crash course in the things that she was thankful for and I thought it sounded like a divine idea...particularly as I enter hour 11 of my 13 hour workday. So here it is - a list of just a very few of the things that I am particularly thankful for.
1. For only having 2 more hours left until I can go home tonight
2. For having amazing jobs that I love, and getting to work as much as I want to most of the time
3. For being given the amazing opportunity to teach children, and teach them art...
4. For all the more things that they teach me
5. For Brian...really, he's the number one thing that I'm thankful for. He makes me laugh, he loves me something fierce, and is so beautiful and strong and a daily inspiration to me in so many ways. I am a better and more full person for the (almost) 3 years that I've spent with him, and I am the luckiest girl I know.
6. For our cozy and wonderful little house, with its fireplace...for snuggling in on snowy days
7. For Denver, and it's 300 blue days a year, and it's dry cold, and its mountain skyscape
8. For music that gets you up and dancing...especially for Elvis, and the Beatles, and Lucinda Williams
9. For great books, and the New Yorker, and scripts, and libraries and the way that books smell
10. For hot beverages
11. For the Princess Aly - the best girlfriend a girl could dream of...for her living close by, and always taking me seriously, and for our adventures, and for our inside jokes, and shared history, and for her cooking, and her taste in wine :)
12. For amazing people and friends - old and new, that I've been lucky enough to always be surrounded by (that's YOU!)
13. For a beautiful, dysfunctional, loving, rowdy, supportive, and blustery family - who may not always have it "right," but is always right for me.
14. For people who actually do read my silly blogs (that's YOU too!)
15. For raspberry cordials
16. For the chance to travel
17. For theatre. For art. For hopes and dreams. ...and Julie Taymoor and Ang Lee and Peter Brooks and Augosto Boal and Amadeo Modigliani
18. Because you believe.
19. For pizza.
20. For board games, especially Apples to Apples
21. For Mississippi with its complex history, and its ugliness, and the sometimes surprising beauty that can spring out of that ugliness
22. For a new bedspread and old teddy bears
23. For almost being done with my Christmas shopping
24. For babies
25. For life, the joyous and tragic life that it is...but all mine.
So, that felt really great - perhaps I'll do it again soon. Thanks for checking in! :)
1. For only having 2 more hours left until I can go home tonight
2. For having amazing jobs that I love, and getting to work as much as I want to most of the time
3. For being given the amazing opportunity to teach children, and teach them art...
4. For all the more things that they teach me
5. For Brian...really, he's the number one thing that I'm thankful for. He makes me laugh, he loves me something fierce, and is so beautiful and strong and a daily inspiration to me in so many ways. I am a better and more full person for the (almost) 3 years that I've spent with him, and I am the luckiest girl I know.
6. For our cozy and wonderful little house, with its fireplace...for snuggling in on snowy days
7. For Denver, and it's 300 blue days a year, and it's dry cold, and its mountain skyscape
8. For music that gets you up and dancing...especially for Elvis, and the Beatles, and Lucinda Williams
9. For great books, and the New Yorker, and scripts, and libraries and the way that books smell
10. For hot beverages
11. For the Princess Aly - the best girlfriend a girl could dream of...for her living close by, and always taking me seriously, and for our adventures, and for our inside jokes, and shared history, and for her cooking, and her taste in wine :)
12. For amazing people and friends - old and new, that I've been lucky enough to always be surrounded by (that's YOU!)
13. For a beautiful, dysfunctional, loving, rowdy, supportive, and blustery family - who may not always have it "right," but is always right for me.
14. For people who actually do read my silly blogs (that's YOU too!)
15. For raspberry cordials
16. For the chance to travel
17. For theatre. For art. For hopes and dreams. ...and Julie Taymoor and Ang Lee and Peter Brooks and Augosto Boal and Amadeo Modigliani
18. Because you believe.
19. For pizza.
20. For board games, especially Apples to Apples
21. For Mississippi with its complex history, and its ugliness, and the sometimes surprising beauty that can spring out of that ugliness
22. For a new bedspread and old teddy bears
23. For almost being done with my Christmas shopping
24. For babies
25. For life, the joyous and tragic life that it is...but all mine.
So, that felt really great - perhaps I'll do it again soon. Thanks for checking in! :)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
2nd adolescence
I recently had my very first bra fitting. Pimples are popping up all over my face. I'm feeling awkwardly tall all the time. I'm wearing my emotions on the outside and finding myself a little incapable of not expressing every single feeling that comes my way. If I get less than 8 hours of sleep, I'm cranky. I can't stop singing Madonna songs off of the Like a Virgin album.
I never went through the *awkwardly tall* phase - in fact, I love being tall - always wished I was taller than I am. And suddenly, there I am, standing in a crowd of people feeling so conspicuos...wishing I could just shrink down to a less noticeable size. My voice sounds funny, and often way too loud. My feelings are hurt at the drop of a hat. Seriously, I'm 16 again. 16 was an okay time for me - not great, but not horrible...it's like I'm paying the price for not having an awful adolescence...I'm having it again, and how!
Clearly, my hormones are raging - but I'm almost 30 years old. I truly believed that these things sort of settled at some point. Still...my bra fitting was pretty exhilirating...And, my bra size is pretty porn star sexy :) And seeing Madonna at 28 is ever so much more satisfying than it would have been at 16. But could we give the hormones a rest? Please?
I never went through the *awkwardly tall* phase - in fact, I love being tall - always wished I was taller than I am. And suddenly, there I am, standing in a crowd of people feeling so conspicuos...wishing I could just shrink down to a less noticeable size. My voice sounds funny, and often way too loud. My feelings are hurt at the drop of a hat. Seriously, I'm 16 again. 16 was an okay time for me - not great, but not horrible...it's like I'm paying the price for not having an awful adolescence...I'm having it again, and how!
Clearly, my hormones are raging - but I'm almost 30 years old. I truly believed that these things sort of settled at some point. Still...my bra fitting was pretty exhilirating...And, my bra size is pretty porn star sexy :) And seeing Madonna at 28 is ever so much more satisfying than it would have been at 16. But could we give the hormones a rest? Please?
Friday, November 7, 2008
Laundry day
There are some things that it is remarkably easy to lose and almost impossible to find. Those of the Catholic faith even have a Saint dedicated to finding things. St Theresa? I don't remember. I did the laundry tonight, and somehow lost 2 socks...2 socks, from 2 different pairs of socks. I wish you could just lose the whole pair, why do you have to hold on to this one reminder of the glory days?
Life is sort of like that. Trust. Remarkably easy to lose and just about the hardest thing in the world to find. I wonder if St. Theresa covers trust? Not just trust in other people though, trust in yourself. Somehow, it seems like it all goes hand in hand. Lose trust in someone else, suddenly the whole world looks suspicious, yourself included.
And what I can't figure outis how to go on without trust. You can put on your happy face, work out all your forgiveness and issues - but if you can't trust again...well, you might as well have just put on those two odd socks. One is pink and white striped, one is black with green hearts on it...one is an ankle sock while one reaches up towards your calf. The job is effectively done, your feet are warm and protected...but something just doesn't feel right. All day you walk around with those two socks feeling like an extension of your whole self - lopsided, awkward, wrong.
Life is sort of like that. Trust. Remarkably easy to lose and just about the hardest thing in the world to find. I wonder if St. Theresa covers trust? Not just trust in other people though, trust in yourself. Somehow, it seems like it all goes hand in hand. Lose trust in someone else, suddenly the whole world looks suspicious, yourself included.
And what I can't figure outis how to go on without trust. You can put on your happy face, work out all your forgiveness and issues - but if you can't trust again...well, you might as well have just put on those two odd socks. One is pink and white striped, one is black with green hearts on it...one is an ankle sock while one reaches up towards your calf. The job is effectively done, your feet are warm and protected...but something just doesn't feel right. All day you walk around with those two socks feeling like an extension of your whole self - lopsided, awkward, wrong.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
